Book 51: Ryan’s Bed

By: Tijan

☆☆☆☆☆

Plot (Goodreads Summary):

I crawled into Ryan Jensen’s bed that first night by accident.I barely knew him. I thought it was his sister’s bed—her room. It took seconds to realize my error, and I should’ve left… I didn’t. I didn’t jump out. I didn’t get embarrassed. I relaxed. And that night, in that moment, it was the only thing I craved.I asked to stay. He let me, and I slept. The truth? I never wanted to leave his bed. If I could’ve stayed forever, I would have. He became my sanctuary. Because—four hours earlier—my twin sister killed herself.

Review:

My only complaint for this entire book is that this isn’t a series and from what I know, there isn’t and won’t be a second book.

I felt myself connected to both of these sisters. This set of twins are people I can see being best friends with. I am more like Mackenzie than Willow. I just knew that there was no fucks left to give from her.

When it comes to writing, I believe that it should be opposite of a movie: tell don’t show. Except for when an author says a character does something and doesn’t go through with it. Tijan went through with it and her writing is some of the funniest things I have ever heard. I listened to it on Audible which had to be the best audiobook I have ever got my hands on. Therese Plummer (the person who read the book) did such a good job at being Mackenzie.

I should probably get back to the reason I was complaining. I hate and love the ending/epilogue to the book. It made me closer to Mackenzie but it also got me mad that there wasn’t a second book. Just as a refresher, I include spoilers. So if you want to read this book, leave now because this is the biggest spoiler you will ever read. Willow’s suicide letter, was Mackenzie. She said she never read Willow’s suicide letter, but then she stated the list of why Willow was suicidal. I thought that was why I connected with her, but then I found out it was Mackenzie’s and that’s when I realized we could be the same person.

So I don’t know if I am welcomed to say this, but I was suicidal for 54% of my life. That’s a small number to some people when you’re not young. I would say my age for this if I felt like I needed to say it. I don’t think I need to say it in this case. What I will say is that I first had bad thoughts starting in first grade. I had them for years and never told anyone. I almost killed myself so many times for the same reasons Mackenzie almost did. She felt like a burden. I did too. She felt a lot more things that I felt, that was the biggest one to me though.

Ryan is like every other book boyfriend I love but different. I love them all and he is another that I love. I don’t mean that they are all the same, but my love is.

The most gripping part of this book is the grief that Mackenzie felt. My little sister being born is what has kept me from pulling the trigger, and I never knew what it would be like for my siblings if I ever did. I know that grief is different for everyone so this gives me a pretty could handle on the family effects.

I think everyone should read this book because it has all of the serious topics that nobody really likes to address. This is one of the best books and I know this is a stretch, but don’t be surprised if this book makes it on my “favorite books of the year” list.

Blogger’s Note:

I hope you guys found this informative about suicide in some way, shape, or form.

Guess who had basketball and didn’t post again ’cause she had homework? ‘Cause it wasn’t me. I wouldn’t do that. Nope. Not at all…

See y’all on Sunday with some boy book best friends.

Love you all ♡

Book 50: Bright Side

By: Kim Holden

☆☆☆☆

Bright Side #1

Plot (Goodreads Summary):

Secrets. Everyone has one. Some are bigger than others. And when secrets are revealed, some will heal you… And some will end you. Kate Sedgwick’s life has been anything but typical. She’s endured hardship and tragedy, but throughout it all she remains happy and optimistic (there’s a reason her best friend Gus calls her Bright Side). Kate is strong-willed, funny, smart, and musically gifted. She’s also never believed in love. So when Kate leaves San Diego to attend college in the small town of Grant, Minnesota, the last thing she expects is to fall in love with Keller Banks. They both feel it. But they each have a reason to fight it. They each have a secret. And when secrets are revealed, some will heal you… And some will end you.

Review:

So much happens in this book. I have some notes. This is the first I have ever taken real notes on a book. Before that, I would first like to point out that is very little romance and more about Kate’s life then about Kate and Keller.

“I find myself trying to math her smile,” (Holden 9). This is what the author is trying to do with us. She wants us to be optimistic like Kate.

They say dude so much in this book. And I don’t know if Kim Holden has ever lived in California, and maybe she has, I don’t know, but all of the stereotypes that are represented just aren’t true. I have lived in California for almost all of my life. The stereotypes aren’t real except for like one person. The rich snobby part is true if you live in Southern California. But to be fair, the bad driving part is true. I know first hand.

I thought it was cool how my family lives in San Diego and that’s where she lived. Funny.

Also in chapter 9, Keller talks about her appearance but he talks about in a way that represents her personality.

Keller has lines. That’s all I have to say. Just kidding; he got more than that. He has been through so much crap in his life and I couldn’t bare to go through what he has. For all of the people who are thinking about reading this book, there’s a huge spoiler in the next part. I also want to reiterate that my blog says that my reviews contain spoilers, if you even want to consider reading the book, don’t read the book. Read the book then the review. What I want to know, is will he find love again? I seriously don’t know how someone that happy, die.

Blogger’s Note:

I made the basketball team! Tryouts were Friday, Monday, and Tuesday. I made it on the team! I am so excited. I have practice everyday of this week. And two games every week along with at least two practices every week.

I have not been writing my book. I have writer’s block. Only for this chapter though. I know

Book 49: The Goal

NA/A
I like this cover more.

By: Elle Kennedy

☆☆☆☆☆

Off-Campus #4

Plot (Goodreads Summary):

She’s good at achieving her goals… College senior Sabrina James has her whole future planned out: graduate from college, kick butt in law school, and land a high-paying job at a cutthroat firm. Her path to escaping her shameful past certainly doesn’t include a gorgeous hockey player who believes in love at first sight. One night of sizzling heat and surprising tenderness is all she’s willing to give John Tucker, but sometimes, one night is all it takes for your entire life to change. But the game just got a whole lot more complicated… Tucker believes being a team player is as important as being the star. On the ice, he’s fine staying out of the spotlight, but when it comes to becoming a daddy at the age of twenty-two, he refuses to be a bench warmer. It doesn’t hurt that the soon-to-be mother of his child is beautiful, whip-smart, and keeps him on his toes. The problem is, Sabrina’s heart is locked up tight, and the fiery brunette is too stubborn to accept his help. If he wants a life with the woman of his dreams, he’ll have to convince her that some goals can only be made with an assist.

Review:
I haven’t finished this series yet and this one is my favorite books of all of them.

Sabrina is so fun. She seems uptight but I just think that’s what makes her fun. I don’t remember if she thought about having an abortion but I am so glad that she kept it. I don’t know where I stand with abortion, but personally, I would never in a million years give up my child. I respect Elle Kennedy for all of her writing decisions. Her plots and how the story goes always has a serious topic to it.

Tucker… Tucker is one of my favorite book boyfriends of all time. Maybe of all time besides Travis Maddox. I love a man who cares for his girls. He’s such a good dad and he doesn’t complain about anything! I mean nothing.

Her writing is so good and I think it’s my favorite of all time. It makes me feel like someone is telling me a story. She writes with so much feeling and by the end I believe that I am best friends with the main characters.

Blogger’s Note:

I didn’t know it was Sunday so I forgot to post but I have an post idea so I’ll write it soon and post it but I just got back to school so I don’t know when I’ll have free time.

Love you all ♡

Book 48: Best Kind of Broken (again)

By: Chelsea Fine

☆☆☆☆☆

Finding Fate #1

Plot (Goodreads Summary):

Pixie and Levi haven’t spoken in nearly a year when they find themselves working―and living―at the same inn in the middle of nowhere. Once upon a time, they were childhood friends. But that was before everything went to hell. And now things are… awkward. All they want to do is avoid each other, and their past, for as long as possible. But now that they’re forced to share a bathroom, and therefore a shower, keeping their distance from one another becomes less difficult than keeping their hands off each other. Welcome to the hallway of awkward tension and sexual frustration, folks. Get comfy. It’s going to be a long summer.

Review:

I already did a review on this book. But it was my favorite book of 2019 so I thought I would do another review about my thoughts now.

My favorite part of this book is the sexual tension. I never thought I was a fan of it until I read this book and now I crave it. The way Chelsea Fine writes it makes it so that you are wondering how the tension got there, wanting it stop, and wanting it to keep going at the same time because it’s just that good!

The entire book I was wondering what happened in their past and how they would over come it.

Not only is has this book brought me to one new genre, but it’s brought me to another that I have hated and I didn’t mind until thinking about right now. I didn’t even realize that it is a second chance romance until right now. I think I’m okay with reading those books now.

I just now see how many genres are really in this book: best friend’s brother, second chance, hate to love. I mean… wow. There’s probably more that I can’t think of. You guys should let me know which ones I forgot by reading the book and then commenting.

Pixie is someone that with her past, I cannot relate to. As a person though, I think we were separated at birth. I love Pixie and I feel like we have the same personalities. She is hot headed and independent but not in an annoying way. I love Pixie and her attitude towards things.

Levi is a book boyfriend that is silent but you notice him anyways because he just has that energy that draws you in. I think this pair is one of my favorites because of how they react with each other.

I love this book and I don’t know why it has a 3.88 star rating on Goodreads because it deserves five stars.

Blogger’s Note:

It is Wednesday. Wednesdays are review days. We started off my blog with reviews. We are already starting out 2020 with a reviewing bang.

My new Goodreads reading goal is 77 books which is two more than last year. I barely read my 75th book in 2019 so I don’t know if I’m gonna be able to finish 77.

We’ll see.

Love you all ♡

Book 47: Making a Play

By: Abbi Glines

☆☆☆☆

The Field Party #5

Plot (Goodreads Summary):

Ryker Lee is finally enjoying his senior year—he has great friends, hangs out with hot girls, and is on track to get a football scholarship that will set him up for college. Despite this, a small part of him wonders if there’s more to life than parties and meaningless hookups—and if football even means as much to him as it does to his fellow teammates. And when he meets the new girl at school, his world totally changes… Aurora McClay is new to Lawton. She’s grateful that her twin brother, Hunter, is star of the football team and can help her adjust to her new school, but she’s not grateful at how overprotective he is over every person she meets. Just because she is deaf does not mean people have to treat her differently. When she meets Ryker Lee, the two of them spark an instant and intense chemistry, one that proves to be controversial not only because of Ryker’s reputation as a player, but also because of Aurora and Hunter’s father’s bigoted views about who Aurora can and can’t date. Aurora and Ryker know in their hearts that they are meant for each other. But can their relationship endure the turmoil of rumors and prejudice? 

Review:

Okay. I have been waiting for this book. This book actually got me into ASL. I have been learning it since I start reading this book. I wanted to stop reading it for the pure fact that I could stay into it. When I read something, I want to do what they do. I paused my reading for only a brief moment. I finished soon after and I’m still into ASL, so that’s good.

This is one of my favorite books in the series except for the ending. I hate that they couldn’t communicate and that caused a ripple in their relationship. I also hated that she got the hearing thing that I don’t remember the name of. I was loving that she was strong and independent and her father couldn’t change that. She was a rebel in the best way possible.

That’s one of my favorite things about the book. The fact that she would fight for what she wants if she wanted it. Ryker is one of my favorites. He’s just so good!

I felt so bad for Aurora at the end. Not in the way you would think though. I feel bad because she had to go to California. I lived there for 95% of my life and regret most of it. You shouldn’t get me started on California though so I’m just gonna end that before it gets started.

Blogger’s Note:

My books been doing really well since I started it. I have been posting about a chapter a day but that might shorten when school starts and midterms begin. It also might only shorten a little when Thanksgiving begins tomorrow because I have family coming in from the dreaded state of California and I want to spend as much with them as I can before they leave.

Posting for my blog will stay the same and I just wanted to let you guys know, Friday posts are only sometimes. If I have time for it or an idea, then I will, but other than that, I don’t.

I also wanted to let you guys know that for me, school comes first so if I don’t post during midterms at all or in finals week, it’s because this is a hobby of mine and it’s on the back burner. I watched one of Lovely Like Laura’s recent videos and she talked about this so I thought I should too. We basically said the same thing. But I will try my best to post.

Unedited because I’m lazy and I want to write my book.

Love you all ♡

Book 46: Losing the Field

YA

By: Abbi Glines

☆☆☆

The Field Party #4

Plot (Goodreads Summay):

Losing his dream, his ultimate plan, and his future- Nash Lee never expected to be facing a life without football. One wrong move and it had all changed. Going back to school for his senior year no longer appealed to him. He’d rather not leave his house. Walking back into Lawton High School, seeing pity in everyone’s eyes was just another reality in his nightmare. Revenge wasn’t a pretty thing. Tallulah Liddell had found it was rather controlling. The way you looked at life changed completely when you clung to the ugly notion. But she’d done it anyway. From the last day of her junior year when Ryker Lee had made a fat joke about her and Nash laughed with him, she’d been driven by pain. It wasn’t like no one had made fun of her weight before. She was used to that. What had hurt so deeply was Nash’s laughter. He’d always been the one person to notice her, include her, not treat her differently. But that one moment had changed it all. From the time she walked out of the school building to the moment she returned for her senior year Tallulah had been determined to lose weight and finally be the size her peers considered acceptable. What she wasn’t expecting on her return was to find a broken Nash Lee who no longer smiled, rarely spoke, and didn’t care about anything or anyone around him. He was just existing. But the pain in his eyes she understood all too well. He was alone. He no longer fit into the perfect package.

Review:

This one was probably my least favorite.

I love realistic fiction and I know that this series is unrealistic but this book really took the cake.

I don’t really want to address everything that made me mad because then I would ramble on, but my least favorite part was the communication. I have learned that communication is the key to relationship, so the fact that there was basically none, kinda made me mad.

I was so excited to read this book because it was about Nash. Throughout the series, Nash and West have been my favorite. But apparently he changed. I don’t really see it because the main reason I like Nash is because of his humor and how much he cares. That still seemed to be there.

Abbi Glines says that she changes the characters but they really are still the same in a way. I’m okay with that though because I loves all of the characters in the first book.

Blogger’s Note:

I’m doing all three posts today.

My grandpa that I haven’t seen in five years was in town for a week so I really wanted to spend time with him. That’s why I didn’t post.

I haven’t been editing my posts because I’m too lazy.

Love you all ♡

Book 45: After the Game

YA

By: Abbi Glines

☆☆☆☆

The Field Party #3

Plot (Goodreads Summary):

Two years ago, Riley Young fled from Lawton, Alabama. After accusing the oldest Lawton son, Rhett, of rape, everyone called her a liar and she had no option but to leave. Now she’s back, but she’s not at Lawton High finishing up her senior year. She’s at home raising the little girl that no one believed was Rhett’s. Rhett is off at college living the life he was afraid he’d lose with Riley’s accusation, so Riley agrees to move back to Lawton so she and her parents could take care of her grandmother, who is suffering from Alzheimer’s. But the town still hasn’t forgotten their hate for her, and she hasn’t forgotten the way they turned on her when she needed them most. When town golden boy Brady Higgens finds Riley and her daughter, Bryony, stranded on the side of the road in a storm, he pulls over and gives them a ride. Not because he cares about Riley, of course, but because of the kid. But after the simple car ride, he begins to question everything he thought he knew. Could Brady believe Riley and risk losing everything?

Review:

Let me just say that you can usually read this series as a stand alone but this book should be read after the second book ’cause it will make so much more sense. I highly recommend reading the series in order because you will never have to wonder.

I hate that Brady changed but I love it at the same time. After Brady found out about his dad, he was different but different in a weird way. How Brady said he changed was really opposite from his actions. Before he said he was the good guy and after he became an uncaring guy but that’s the exact opposite of what actually happened. I think how he said he was uncaring became more caring… If you know what I mean. He stopped caring about what other people thought. That’s what I meant.

I feel like everyone could relate to Riley. She acts so independent when she really needs help and she hated the pain but she would’ve went through it a billion times in order to get the happiness.

Okay so Riley has a kid that she loves dearly and I can relate so hard. I don’t have a kid but I have a baby sister who I look at as half of my kid because of our age gap. And I babysit her a lot. But this kid is my world and I kid you not that she saved my life. I’m like freaking Hardin and she’s Tessa except that we are not in a gross romance. I’m just saying that I had a cold heart and she changed me.

I love Riley and I think she is my favorite character out of the entire series.

My favorite part of this book is the football scene. Like, the entire football game scene. He yells at his dad which is freaking great and I loved that because he deserved it. And then he kissed Riley after the game in front of everyone. Hah. After the game. Mmm, I’m funny.

Blogger’s Note:

All the posts I did not get to during the week, I will be posting today. Besides the Friday post. So I guess just the review.

I will be posting my week on another post because there is so much to talk about.

Love you all ♡

Book 44: Under the Lights

YA

By: Abbi Glines

☆☆☆☆

The Field Party #2

Plot (Goodreads Summary):

In the follow-up to Abbi Glines’s #1 New York Times bestseller Until Friday Night—three teens from a small southern town are stuck in a dramatic love triangle. Willa can’t erase the bad decisions of her past that led her down the path she’s on now. But she can fight for forgiveness from her family. And she can protect herself by refusing to let anyone else get close to her. High school quarterback and town golden boy Brady used to be the best of friends with Willa—she even had a crush on him when they were kids. But that’s all changed now: her life choices have made her a different person from the girl he used to know. Gunner used to be friends with Willa and Brady, too. He too is larger than life and a high school football star—not to mention that his family basically owns the town of Lawton. He loves his life, and doesn’t care about anyone except himself. But Willa is the exception—and he understands the girl she’s become in a way no one else can. As secrets come to light and hearts are broken, these former childhood friends must face the truth about growing up and falling in love…even if it means losing each other forever. 

Review:

I was not excited about this book. I am not a fan of love triangles and I only read this because I knew who she would end up with so I knew who to root for. I love realistic fiction books and this entire book series is dramatic and will never ever happen in real life. And if it does, my condolences.

I don’t like Gunner. I just don’t like him but I like him when he’s with Willa. I just don’t like him. He ain’t my type. At least Willa and Gunner balance each other out becuase I really like Willa. She has no filter and I see a lot of myself in her.

This book was really dramatic and the only reason it wasn’t one of my favorites was because of gunner and because of the fact that it was not realistic at all. Gunner’s family are traders and Willa’s life isn’t what I have ever seen before. Her life might actually be someone else’s but I wouldn’t know since I am the most sheltered person when it comes to life outside of books.

Blogger’s Note:

Hello there beautiful. Hi. I saw a play that a high school in my area put on and it was Frozen but I don’t know how I feel about it. If it wasn’t a recreation then I probably would’ve liked it more but I don’t know. It’s like a book to movie adaptation. I am so tired because whenever I am in a dark space and not sleeping I get tired. I sat in a chair in a dark space and watched a play and now I am exhausted and have been that way for hours but I can’t take a nap or else I can’t sleep that night. I’m probably gonna go to bed now.

Love you all ♡

Book 43: Snow White: A Graphic Novel

By: Matt Phelan

☆☆☆☆

Plot (Goodreads Summary):

Award-winning graphic novelist Matt Phelan delivers a darkly stylized noir Snow White set against the backdrop of Depression-era Manhattan. The scene: New York City, 1928. The dazzling lights cast shadows that grow ever darker as the glitzy prosperity of the Roaring Twenties screeches to a halt. Enter a cast of familiar characters: a young girl, Samantha White, returning after being sent away by her cruel stepmother, the Queen of the Follies, years earlier; her father, the King of Wall Street, who survives the stock market crash only to suffer a strange and sudden death; seven street urchins, brave protectors for a girl as pure as snow; and a mysterious stock ticker that holds the stepmother in its thrall, churning out ticker tape imprinted with the wicked words “Another . . . More Beautiful . . . KILL.” In a moody, cinematic new telling of a beloved fairy tale, extraordinary graphic novelist Matt Phelan captures the essence of classic film noir on the page—and draws a striking distinction between good and evil. 

Review:

I love retelling of books. Obviously Cinderella is the most popular one to retell so when there’s something different I want to grab it immediately. I love graphic novels so this was a win win.

My favorite part of this entire book was the fact that it factored in the Great Depression. It effected every person in the book and that is what really sold me.

This isn’t a long review because it was just a nice pleasant read.

Blogger’s Note:

Don’t forget to enter the giveaway being placed on my Instagram (@books.for_thoughts). The rules are in the photo description.

Damn this is a small post.

Love you all ♡

Book 42: Follow Me Back

YA

By: A.V. Geiger

Book #1 out of two.

☆☆☆☆

Plot (Goodreads Summary):

Tessa Hart’s world feels very small. Confined to her bedroom with agoraphobia, her one escape is the online fandom for pop sensation Eric Thorn. When he tweets to his fans, it’s like his speaking directly to her… Eric Thorn is frightened by his obsessive fans. They take their devotion way too far. It doesn’t help that his PR team keeps posting to encourage their fantasies. When a fellow pop star is murdered at the hands of a fan, Eric knows he has to do something to shatter his online image fast—like take down one of his top Twitter followers. But Eric’s plan to troll @TessaHeartsEric unexpectedly evolves into an online relationship deeper than either could have imagined. And when the two arrange to meet IRL, what should have made for the world’s best episode of Catfish takes a deadly turn… Told through tweets, direct messages, and police transcripts.

Review:

A.V. Geiger is an amazing writer. She knows how to do character growth properly. I hated Eric so much when I first read about him but through out the book he becomes a good guy that I love.

I hate reading physical copies of anything but I love listening to audiobooks. Multitasking is probably what I do best in life and I can only do that when listening to audiobooks. But let me tell you folks, I was so freaking enthralled with this book and it was a physical copy that I could not put down.

I am not a fan of the ending cliffhanger but the rest makes me so happy. Especially when Tessa is meeting Eric for the first time because she thought he was lying which is realistic. Back to the ending thing, I didn’t like that there was a cliffhanger because I loved the book as it was and I didn’t want to have to read another one. I think I know what happens in the second book though.

Spoilers!

I think the final Eric Thorn tweet is about MET. Everything connects to her. He said that all of his fans were leaches but when Eric was talking to Tessa he said that she wasn’t what he thought so she’s not a leach. But that doesn’t mean that MET isn’t a leach. And MET literally had nothing to do with the plot but if she were to be someone important in the second book than she would be mentioned in the first. Most authors don’t use this tactic but A.V. Geiger definitely would. I think. I don’t know for certain but it would look like something she would do since you know, she’s an amazing writer.

Blogger’s Note:

Hi. Okay so I will be adding a star rating chart to the home page so that if you don’t know how I feel about a book then you can just go there. Because different people have different ways of rating and I have a very specific way.

I’m already failing at school and it’s only day 2. My teacher puts questions on the test and on his handouts that aren’t even in the textbooks. Like how am I supposed to know what to do. I am acing all of the textbook homework but once he creates the test and adds his own questions to it that are mildly confusing, I fail.

A lot of holidays are coming up soon so beware of special posts.

Love you all ♡